she loves me not?

she loves me well she did years back put my bid in for her heart won it briefly simply wasnt the right time wasnt in the right mind to find the real man in me she needed proceeded to make crucial mistakes in the end lost her to another yeah i still love her probly will neva stop took a lot out of me love sucker punched me in the gut didnt give up i know how to love again this experience opened my heart move forward i must just wonder if she loves me or does she love me not?

thanx(for nothing)

celebrate with a turkey and ham itz a scam to veil the truth know that society tries to conceal like a weapon of steel but i reveal history where Americans native to the land were almost eradicated cuz shay whitey wanted what they couldnt have grab ur books and look before u arbitrarily bite into that apple cobbler know u too have been robbed i give thanks to ALLAH not to those who exposed many to smallpox on blankets i think itz crazy to sweep it under the rug i shrug in digust use this holiday to discuss the mistrust.

Nya

born in the 21st century u were destined to be mine i love u dearly hope u see clearly that i try to be the best father for u cant believe u are growing up before my eyes dont lissen to anyone's lies u can be anything u put ur mind to circumstance has separated us from being a nuclear family it is what it is doesnt mean that i dont care i share my feelings though u may not understand at this time everything i do now is for u in the past made bad decisions irresponsible me u are the only gurl for me mi hija see the times when u are not around i get down wish u were by my side though we reside in the same city cant miss the opportunities i have to cultivate ur mind make u a good women and a wonderful wife for a decent man das my plan this is for u my one and only daughter from a father that loves u.

substance abuse

real talk i fought for so long my addiction prolonged my chances to be free unbound from the chains of substance abuse at one point it was no use help i refused my development was arrested learned my lesson growing up in a 'hood' near u during my youth i was loose righty tighty would have died more than likely if continued down the path of despair had my share of ups and downs no excuses but many don't know how to channel their pent up emotions only through hurt masked as anger older now so i know the danger of negative coping hoping for the day that i can say i overcame my past addiction understand however that it is a constant battle as my feet touch the gravel i unravel the layers of my skin this is who i am i was not just because i grew from it all "the buck that bought the bottle couldve struck the lotto" is my motto. no need for pity or sorrow tommorrow is a new day

goodbye

the hardest thing to do is let go my heart is damaged better get Maaco need time to grow into the man i'm supposed to be neva understood how to treat a woman had no plans no blueprint emotions are left unchecked wish u could be happy with me though u have found another wont smother with yearning for ur return i've learned 6 months have passed since last we were one think of u constantly cant seem to shake it affected me forever will neva be the same probly a good thing want to show u the real me you will see i am different the pride is gone if i had a magic wand i would turn back time to when we first met i cant forget what has transpired we end up being stuck like a car with no tires i aint a liar i love u unconditionally u were sent to me for a reason u left the same as u entered i get the picture relationships are a mixture of trust,passion, understanding u are not demanding u just know what u want i know what i need now itz time to proceed.

Vain

mirror mirror on the wall who has the best flow of them all yeah i already know itz me not conceited confident in my abilities my talent is unmatched facts trump rumors cant be stop like a speeding locomotive man im super leap tall buildings in a single bound i found my niche the gift of gab concoct potent lyrics in my lab emcees step up to get beat down then give u pound for a least tryn there's no denying i only started rhyming better than half of the ppl out there claiming the throne there can only be one king of the hill vocabulary spill im ill in the city of medicine the cure for hip-hop battling emcees im a rap veteran im not settling for less got more in store got rhymes galore.